Friends

Hey guys its Dec 31, 2011!!! In less than 15 minutes, it will be 2012!!! I am just home chilling and waiting for the year to come >< how about you guys? Oh wow the fireworks outside are LOUD >.<

I watched a video on Youtube yesterday about what are true friends and it really inspired me to write about it on this post today. In the video, it mentioned that true friends are some who you trust, who don’t lie to you and also someone who will share his/her bed with you (well, this is not the main point). More to add on, I believe that true friends are the ones that you can always count on when you have problems. I have been to six different schools in my life and I met a lot of people and ‘friends’ too. Umm yeah…’friends’, I realized that I actually don’t have many true friends.

I remember I had a lot of friends when I was in kindergarten. Everyone just played along really well and there wasn’t any issue making friends at that time. Well….to be honest, I actually don’t know anything about them anymore so they are also not my true friends. But there is always a question in my head that is it easier to have friends when we are younger and when our minds are more pure? When I was little, I knew that I only wanted someone to play with and I remembered that I didn’t care who the person was, and so did the rest of the class. (well….beside one person cause he bit people.) Everyone got along so well that there wasn’t any conflict at all. When I got older, I realized that it’s really hard to make friends. Everyone’s mind is not pure and innocent anymore. I remember I still had a lot of friends till grade 3. When I went into grade 4, all my friends just ditched me for no reason. They never told me why they don’t want to be friends with me anymore and they just ignored me when I went close to them (that feeling wasn’t good). I was just alone for that whole year and the rest of years in that school. It was a girl’s school that I went to. GIRLS ARE SCARY, especially the ones that are like in grade 4 to 8. No offences to those girls, but from my past experiences, girls in these ages are the scariest. I thought of many reasons when my friends ditched me at that time, was it because I want smart enough? (ok yeah I was really stupid, I got low marks in many subjects) or was it because I wasn’t rich enough? (they are all really rich >.<) but after a while, I was like ‘FORGET IT! I don’t care if I have friends anymore! I AM WHO I AM!’ I actually thought of changing myself to make them be friends with me again. (well, I still don’t know why they didn’t want to be friend with me. I think it was because I was too stupid.) The people in that class were really self-centered, they only cared about themselves and they never cared about what other people feel. I heard from other people that they ditched me because they thought that there was no use for me in the group, I don’t even know if that’s true or not, but what they meant was that there wasn’t any advantages on me that they could take if they are friends with me. They only wanted to friends with teacher’s pets or someone who is smart or rich. Why? Because there will be a chance to be a teacher’s pet for them when they are friends with someone who is already is. Or if they are with someone who is smart, they thought that they can be smart also (that’s really stupid for them to think of), and if they have a rich friend, oh yeah so many advantages! They can get expensive presents, make them LOOK LIKE they are rich also, and many other advantages. Well I was neither a teacher’s pet, smart, or rich. Of course there was no use to be friends with me because there weren’t any advantages that other people could take from me.

When I got to grade 7, I changed another school and I thought things could get better. Well it was, but things just happed the same way. I met many new friends in that school and I join a so call ‘popular’ group. Actually to be clear, I joined into the ‘popular’ group later with another friend which I really regret it. To be simple, I met a new friend on the first day of school, and later on, the ‘leader’ of the ‘popular’ group asked us to join theirs because they thought the two of us were ‘lonely’. So we agreed to join, and I was actually really happy in the beginning. I had no friends in the previous school and I got so many when I was there. At first, they were all really nice to me and everything was fine. But later on, I found out that me and they were totally in two completely different worlds (not the actually world, but just we have opposite personalities). All they talked about were BOYS, MAKEUP, and the most on HOW RICH THEY ARE!!!! They always compared their families that who is richer and stuff (they didn’t compare directly, but what they did was comparing how expensive the things they had). OMG I HATE THAT, so I never joined in their conversations because I couldn’t join in their conversations. I guess that’s the reason why they ditched me….they thought that I was always acting cool? Oh well whatever. But the saddest was the friend who joined in the group ditched me also. When I first knew her, she was just the same with me. We never had conversations like that before. But when we joined that group, she acted the same with the rest of them and I could tell that she was pretending and forcing herself to join in. When I knew that they are trying to ditch me, the friend who joined in with me actually gave them ideas on how to ditch me! I was really heartbroken because I thought we were true friend! I guess I was wrong! So what happened last was that I ditched them and joined the so call ‘leftover’ group. There were three of us and all of us got ditched by our groups. Other people might think that all of us were losers, but I didn’t care at all! WE ALL GOT ALONG SO WELL! We always have the same conversations and there weren’t any conflicts with us at all.

Now I immigrated to another country and I met my TRUE FRIENDS. I had so many friends that they all met my definition of true friend. They tell the truth, they are someone I trusted and someone who shared the same bed with me lol. I am so happy right now!!

Well off to count down and…..clean my room. Hope you all had a great New Year eve and hope that EVERYTHING WILL BE GREAT IN 2012!!

                       

                                                                                                                                                -Iciee