Dec 18/2011

What is this, first entry? What an honour!

Iciee and Aura, this is it huh? After talking about this ‘project’ of ours, it’s finally the time that we begin this journey. I’m feeling the excitement and I’ve barely even started.

First, I’d like to share with you the topic that’s been harassing my poor mind lately: university applications. I’m scared. I really am. I’m not just saying that to fish out compliments like, “oh you’ll get into university for sure!” or “you’re smart! You’ll get in!” I am honest to God scared out of my mind. I have confidence in myself that I will get into a university, that’s for sure. It’s just;
will it be the university of my choice? Let me rephrase that, will it be the university of my parent’s choice? My mom especially has so much confidence in me that it’s hard to tell her that I’m not half as confident as she thinks I am. I’ve filled out my application online weeks ago; I just couldn't bring myself to hit that ‘submit’ button. Friends all around me are already getting offers of acceptance into prestigious schools. It makes me feel like, how should I say this nicely, like crap.

Things at home haven’t been peaches and sunshine lately. My great-grandmother of age 91 has fallen ill and is in critical condition. My mom’s been crying a lot recently and all I could do was stand there with my arms around her and tell her everything is okay. My mom and I have been holding on to this lie to get through. We’ve recently put out our Christmas tree and decorated it with lights like always. After we were done, mom looked at the tree for a while and said, “Your great-grandma is dying and here we are, putting ornaments on trees.” Now whenever I look at our tree, I think of great-grandma.

On a brighter note, it’s almost Christmas, season of the lights. I’m proud to say that our neighbourhood has outdone ourselves this year; I’ve never been blinded this much by Christmas lights before. Can I just say how much I am looking forward to that two-week vacation? Very. How are you guys going to spend the two weeks? Please don’t waste it like I will. I always make

lists of things I plan to do over the break and I fantasize about all the fun I will have and all the things I’ll get done. The reality? I manage to complete 2 or 3 things on the list and feel like I’ve wasted the whole 14 days doing nothing at all. Something l plan to achieve this year (and hopefully will) is to bake cookies with my brother, learn how to knit, make a giiiiiiiant snowman (if only it’d snow), and go shopping! Oh yes, and study for exams, that’s a must.

I apologize if this first entry started off too negative. I always share the negative things when someone asks me to pour out my heart and thoughts. That’s all from me this week, I hope you guys had a wonderful weekend and I can’t wait to hear from you!

- Taro King